She was happy with how things had turned out after her little luncheon with Milan, he seemed to be a nice guy after all. The only thing that she raised an eyebrow at was that majority of the time she was with him, she was the one doing the talking. He seemed to be a very quiet guy, not reserved or guarded, just quiet. She had always thought she could not carry off a sensible conversation with any guy she was meeting for the first time, but yesterday had been fun!
While on a popular social networking site, she saw somebody had shared a song that she loved. Unable to resist, she hit the play button and was soon lost in the music. She had a strange â€˜thingâ€™ for sad songs, they always drew her attention and once she started listening to them, she would be hooked for a very long time. The emotions and the pain of the singer always spoke immense volumes to her, but at the end of it all, she would be in a very strange mood. Her friends always joked about her that grief and pain turned her philosophical. She was sure she could never make them understand that philosophy was her parallel world operating within herself, her haven where she ran to for solace; hence she guarded it as her little secret.
Her haven had lately turned into a battle zone – her heart and her brain fired questions at her, incessantly, showing no kindness whatsoever. She was literally torn between everything â€“ her parents wanting her to settle down, her own dreams of an ambitious career, her liking for Milan, her fear of the unknown side of Milan. Asha felt awkward and lost in the midst of it all.
Should she give the new kinship she had developed with this guy a try? Should she ask for some more time from her parents and also from Milan? Should she tell him that her dreams are too precious to be sacrificed for a husband? Should she even consider sacrificing her dreams for some guy who will walk into her life one fine day? Should she let go of Milan and wait till her career is somewhat settled so that she can be more independent? But what if she lets Milan go, and will repent over it later? Wonâ€™t she be hurting her parents â€“ the ones who stood by her to ensure that she achieved her dreams â€“ by denying them their wish to see their daughter settled in life? Would she be happy marrying this guy? Is he really as good as he portrays himself to be?
Asha sighed, somewhere deep down, the realization struck that life doesnâ€™t come with a handbook, that she has to live her life no matter what the odds were, that some questions were difficult and that she has to live by the choices she makes.
Girls in India are caught in the drift when they reach a particular age. They suddenly face a dilemma as to what to focus on in their life, whether to make a career and ensure a living or to get married and secure their life. Girls who remain single after the so called marriageable age are frowned upon by the society and are considered a burden for their families.
Throughout the month of April, thanks to the AtoZ Challenge, I am trying to portray the life of Asha, a common Indian girl with dreams and aspirations. Everyday we focus on one alphabet starting from A on April 1st till Z on April 30th. Stick with me till the end of the journey and do tell me what you think of my writing and my Asha.
A -Â An Arranged Marriage
B -Â Bridal Dreams
C -Â Cherubs From Heaven
D -Â Rusty Dusty Delhi
E -Â ErnakulamÂ
F -Â Fretting Over F.R.I.E.N.D.S & FiancÃ©
G -Â Gratifying Rendezvous
H -Â Hospitality Crash Course
I -Â I Love You??!!
J -Â Journalism’s Joy
K -Â Krishna
L -Â Love, Longing & Life
M -Â Milan – A Meeting
N-Â Noodles, Nimbu Paani & A Nice Guy
O -Â Online?
P -Â Phone Number
Q -Â Questions!
R -Â Risks
S -Â Some Soul Searching
T -Â Timeless Tableau, A Twist in The Tale
U -Â Union